Thursday, February 26, 2009

This time around

Nothing to see here, folks.

Oh, sure. I'm exhausted and basically pass out as soon as Kali goes down for her afternoon nap. And yeah, there's a big honkin' zit on my chin. And I wake up so hungry that I feel like I could puke. But don't let it fool you, that's the progesterone talking.

It's so different this time around. I'm not sure if it's because the anxiety is gone (I'm pretty sure I'll get pregnant, at some point), or because I'm older and wiser (ha!), or because I know exactly how much progesterone fucks with me. But it's different. I'm not even thinking about the 2ww most of the time. I'm certainly not obsessing about possible pregnancy symptoms... yet. Maybe in a few days. Maybe once we hit 7 dpo and implantation could have potentially happened. But 4 dpo? Nope. If the egg fertilized, it's still floating around lazily, like an arts student during the summer after university.

Aw, look at me. I'm getting all poetic.

Anyhow, I'm off to wake Kali up. She stayed up (in her crib, in a dark room, with the white noise machine going) until ONE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING talking to herself. I have no idea why... but it can't happen again. Mummy needs her sleep. So I'm going to cruelly wrench her out of her bed, take her to the drop-in centre, and make her run around with the other kiddoes. Hopefully that will encourage some serious napping... and sleep begets sleep, right?

4 comments:

Aurelia said...

Ooooo, yeah, get her tired. Run her like mad!

So, I'm still hoping it worked!

eve said...

Oh I hope this is it! I know I'm a new follower of your blog, but I tagged you for an award in my blog. I've only been blogging for a month, so every blog is new to me! I hope that the second time around is magic for you.

EVE http://infertilityrocks.wordpress.com/

Michelle said...

Hi there! I'm new to your blog today, and I just wanted to pop in and say hello. I also had an IUI Sunday, so I'm on the same TWW as you are. My beta is scheduled for the 10th, but I'm sure I'll be home testing before then... Just wanted to let you know you're not alone. Best of luck!

Dora said...

Well, 6dp2dt for me. Same progesterone symptoms as you. My zit is on my cheek.

I'm doing the same about not reading anything into these symptoms. Just eating my chocolate and waiting. We'll know when we know.

Hope you and Kali both get a good night sleep tonight.