same old mum... and no egg.

My mum called today. She's vacationing in the carribean and wanted to check on me. She also HAD to tell me about X's daughter, who has PCOS, had two miscarriages, and now has three beautiful daughters. All this as evidence that... (are you ready?)

OF COURSE I'LL GET PREGNANT.

She finished off this anecdote by saying "so it happens a lot more often than you think!"
"That's funny," I said, "because with it being so common, I really think people should in general be more sensitive about it when I tell them, don't you?"
To which my mother replied "well, maybe people aren't more sensitive because most of them just get over it."

!!!!!

Then again, my mom is also from the school of thought that says "well, if you miscarried that means the baby was deformed anyway, and you don't want an unhealthy baby."

I'm going to stop writing about this now, because it just makes me feel angry.

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I'm slowly getting un-sick. Slowly. And I'm not contagious anymore (thanks, penicillin!) so I can finally see people. I'm going crazy being in the house with Mr. December 24/7. I love him dearly and treasure our time together... but there's only so much treasure a girl NEEDS, know what I mean?

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I haven't ovulated yet. I don't even know what day of my cycle it is - 16? 17? I'm just praying the cycle ends just after my RE appointment on Jan 3 so we can get moving with some treatment or something. I am so fucking tired of waiting.