Monday, February 05, 2007

I knew, but I'm still crushed.

The nurse just called. Negative.

I knew that's what she'd say. I knew I wasn't pregnant. But my heart still hurts and I think I'm going to cry.

I don't know how many times I can survive this. How do you do it, month after month?

I guess there's no good alternative, is there?

7 comments:

Heather said...

I'm so sorry Sweetie.

Klubby said...
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Klubby said...

December, I'm sorry. When you know, you know, right? I also had the call today as expected.

We are now taking a ttc break and moving onto adoption. When one door closes, another opens....

I will keep following your journey and praying for you.

SmarshyBoy said...

I'm terribly sorry. It's such an awful thing. I hope you start to feel a bit better soon.

sariel & shlomit said...

awww sweetie....it's really, really, really hard and you need to go ahead and get the crying out of you...i don't know what to say to make it easier...it's just not easy, no matter what...it sucks and it's unfair...i got the same call and i was really hoping you didn't...shit.

i can't say it's any easier for me now, but in a sad and sick kind of way, i'm getting used to it. my crying jags are a bit shorter. but i think it's a sign of less hope so i'm not sure that's such a good thing.

i'm just so sad for you and sending the biggest of hugs...let mr december pamper the h*ll out of you...
peace
shlomit

My Reality said...

Even if you are prepared when you get the call, it still hurts. I always allow myself a little time to grieve after a failed cycle. It is a loss no matter what.

I am so sorry.

Gil said...

That call always sucks doesn't it? No, it doesn't get easier, but you find a way to deal in your own time and in your own way. Take breaks when and if you need them, or look at other options as many people do. But the most important thing is you and your relationship with your family. Keep that in good stead, and you'll get through this. We all will. Sending many, many hugs.