sigh.

I need a baby. I very badly want to be pregnant right now. And for that reason, the universe will shit on me and I won't be. And it will take another 5 months to conceive. And then maybe I'll miscarry.

Sorry for the melodrama.

I just found out that my cousin is 5 months pregnant with her second child. I'm so happy and excited for them. Truly.

But their news has driven home the fact that I want a baby really badly.